Sunday, August 31, 2014

A letter to my darling son from his pregnant mummy.

A letter to my darling son from his pregnant mummy.

It's not because you weren't enough...

It's not because you weren't enough...
It's not because you weren't good enough...
It's not because you didn't fulfill me.
It's not because you didn't fill my heart.
It's not because you were weren't my everything.
It's not because you didn't complete our family.

I didn't decide to have another baby because you weren't good enough.

The thing is, you were, are, and so, so much more!

You are so perfect to me.
You are so amazing to me.
You fill my heart with so much joy.
And love.
And greatness.

I am so completely in love with you.

There was a point where I had decided that I was just going to be your mummy, you full filled my life and heart so much, I didn't need another child.

But then I realised...

That you're so perfect, I needed more.
More of you.
More of what our family makes.

I know this baby won't be you.
I know this baby is it's own person.

But you made me realize how perfect my children would be.

How much of an amazing big brother you will be.
How much love in your heart you have that you need to share.
How much you love people, especially babies.
What a wonderful role model you will be.
What a caring personality you have.

I often feel guilty that you now have to share your Mummy,
But you're the only one out of my children that would have had their Mummy all to them.
That for 27 months, it was just you and me.. and Daddy.
We will forever have that bond, and that special love.
Instead of feeling sad, and guilty, we need to feel so lucky that it's just been us.

So many things will change.
Your whole life will turn upside down.
And first of, I'm sorry that you won't completely understand what's going on.
But I trust you will fall in love with this baby just as we have with you.
I trust that with your caring and beautiful soul, you will begin to understand that we've made you this friend forever.

You will always be enough for us.
You will always complete me.
You are and always will be complete perfection.

Love, Mummy xxx

Baby Caterpillar - 10 Weeks.


A quarter of the way through!! Wow, how time is flying! Thank goodness though, but it makes me think, if time is going this fast while I'm pregnant, imagine what time will be like when baby is actually born, ek!

Morning sickness, I 'think' I'm starting to see the end, but I know that every time I say this, it comes to bite me on the bum twice as hard! I've gone from vomiting about 5 times a day, to about once though. My mum bought me over some ginger to make ginger tea though, lets see if that helps. 

Talking of my mum, she also bought me a beautiful bunch of pink lillies, my favourite flowers, just because I've been so sick. Isn't she amazing! 



Symptoms this week:

Morning sickness
Exhaustion.
Over heating.
Hot sweats.
Lots of peeing!
Breast Pain.
Rib Cage Pain.
Dry Skin.
Spine Pain.
Happy Hormones.

Weight gain: 500 grams

Size of baby: 
3.1 cm (woah, it's like tripled the size in 4 weeks) and 4 grams.
About the size of a Kumquat.


Baby's doing this week:
Tiny nails forming on fingers and toes.

Time left:
30 weeks. 

Next Milestone:
12 Weeks - in 1 weeks time.

Guessing baby's gender:
Boy??

Nickname for baby:
Caterpillar - because of the hungry caterpillar themed nursery.

Cravings:
Fresh fruit! Oranges and apples.

Baby Caterpillar - 9 Weeks.


Ah! I'm so behind already. My posts were spot on, ready to go, when I was pregnant with Jydan, and now I keep forgetting to post. This pregnancy, although I'm only 9 weeks, has flown so far! Or I'm too exhausted to jump on the computer! So here's to a few catch up posts...
Just when I thought sickness was easing up, it hit me like a tone of bricks. And worse. Grocery shopping.. red raw meat... woah! Poor Jydan, I swung the trolley to Tim and ran off to the public toilets. I could hear Jydan screaming as I ran off. Poor thing is still a bit anxious about what's going on. Especially because he had no idea why Mummy just ran off. 
He's doing better with Mummy being sick though. And he has been such a little angel while I've been so tired. 

I've had a little peak to see if there's any names that I like out there. We have the girls name picked from when I was pregnant with Jydan and if he was a girl, but we don't have a boys name at all. Still plenty of time though, but from what I've looked at, there hasn't been any boys name that's stood out. Coming up with Jydan was hard enough!

Symptoms this week:

Morning sickness
Exhaustion.
Over heating.
Hot sweats.
Lots of peeing!
Dry Skin.
Dry Hair.
Sciatic Nerve Pain.

Weight gain: 500 grams

Size of baby: 
Almost an Inch, (2.3 cm long)
About the size of a grape!

Baby's doing this week:
Organs, muscles and nerves begin to work.

Time left:
31 weeks. 

Guessing baby's gender:
Girl/Boy (not sure now)

Nickname for baby:
Caterpillar - because of the hungry caterpillar themed nursery.

Cravings:
Fresh fruit!!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Baby Caterpillar - 8 weeks.


Oh hello 8 weeks, you've arrived already! How time is sort of flying now. I had to have the glucose tolerance test this week, what a pain. They've changed the testing now, so I now have to do an early one at around 9 weeks & 27 weeks. Fasting for 10-16 hours is hooorrrrible when you have morning sickness!

I'm waiting to hear what date my doctor will go by as my due date, at the moment I have three!!  I know baby will come whenever. I know.. Jydan tried to come at 36 weeks. But it would just be nice to know how far I actually am. I was going by my dating scan, but my doctor is still writing my LMP date (which means I'm due 26 march).

Sickness hasn't been overly bad this week. I think its calming down now. Thank goodness.

My pants are starting to get fairly tight now, I'm often having to undo the top button. I was in maternity clothes already with Jydan at 8 weeks, so I feel better that I can at least fit in my pants still!

Symptoms this week:

Constipation.
Morning sickness
Exhaustion.
Over heating.
Hot sweats.
Lots of peeing!
Pimples.
Dry Skin.

Weight gain: 500 grams

Size of baby:
Approx 1.6cm (although baby caterpillar is measuring slightly bigger)
The size of a kidney bean/ peanut.

Baby's doing this week:
Loosing it's little tail and turning it into a tail bone.

Time left:
32 weeks. 

Guessing baby's gender:
Girl.

Nickname for baby:
Caterpillar - because of the hungry caterpillar themed nursery.

Cravings:
Chocolate!! Chocolate peanuts and mud cake. I'm going to put on so much weight.